I had written a lot of parts of this chapter before December 18 (SHINee Jonghyun’s death). I was really grieved to hear the news for he was my favorite male artist. If you notice, I had ended the scene of chapter 17 in front of Jonghyun with the intention of elaborating his role in Key’s life here in Chapter 18. I had written lines that he himself says in the story that subtly hit the cruel reality of his actual celebrity life and grievances before even knowing how true it was. It was like I had written a tribute to him weeks before he even left (and the fact that he died on the 18th when this itself is CH18 made it worse). It somewhat scared me that I had to back away for a while. And when I came back occasionally to write this, I couldn’t help but carefully scrutinize this chapter again and again in order not to portray him or anyone in the wrong light.
For those who are SHINee fans (especially Jonghyun fans), or just anyone having a hard time with loss, whether it’d be out of betrayal, sickness, circumstances, guilt, or misunderstanding, I hope you find at least some comfort in this chapter.
A few months before, just after school, Jonghyun caught Kibum on a corner of the gym scribbling things on a quiz paper that they did earlier that day. He found it strange for Kibum to suddenly be writing things down all by himself since he liked being around people a lot. So he swooped down without warning to sit with him and took a peek at what he was writing.
“What are you doing?” Jonghyun smirked.
“WAH! You scared me,” Kibum flinched on his seat and turned the sheet of paper away from his friend. Jonghyun didn’t miss what he has written down though.
“‘U?’ What is that?” he snickered. “Are you writing a song?”
“Wha- Hm. Hey. Go away, Jonghyun,” Kibum stuttered and elbowed him roughly.
“Wooooohh writing a song, eh? How unlikely of you!” Jonghyun smirked and laughed. “C’mon, let me see!” He reached out for the paper but Kibum stretched his arm farther away from him.
“Hey-no, stop!” Kibum started to feel embarrassed. He didn’t want anyone to find out that he was writing a song for the first time ever in his life, especially it being a love song for Eunji. And of all people, he didn’t want to show it to Jonghyun, especially since the guy has written and composed great songs before that won singing competitions. His novice creation would probably be so bad compared to his.
Soon enough, Minjae spotted them fighting over the papers and approached them. While Kibum was so distracted getting it far away from Jonghyun’s hand, Minjae was able to snatch it from him.
“WOAH—HEY!” Kibum was caught off guard that Minjae was suddenly in the picture and the two friends stumbled on each other. Out of frustration, Kibum pushed Jonghyun away from him and Jonghyun laughed his head off.
“U? Wow, Kibum-ah, I knew it!” Minjae covered his mouth and laughed at him. “I was right about you!”
“About what?” Kibum rolled his eyes. He reached out for the papers, but Minjae kept it away from him. Kibum just covered his face out of embarrassment and gave up.
“Is it any good?” Jonghyun asked as he stared at Minjae reading the paper.
“It could be better,” Minjae shrugged and then said, “It’s pretty nice, though.”
“Ugh, you guys! Can you please just give it back to me?” Kibum said. Minjae then handed it to Jonghyun as he ignored what Kibum just said.
As soon as it got on Jonghyun’s hands, he read out loud, “‘I couldn’t bear to say that I like you. Being by your side was good enough. Yes, should I muster up some cour—’”
“HEY!!! STOOOP!!!” Kibum tried to cover Jonghyun’s eyes and snatch the paper away again, but Jonghyun escaped him and stood beside Minjae, continuing to read the things Kibum has written so far.
“I’m telling you I want you, I’m telling you I love you,” Jonghyun’s laugh got louder as he read. Kibum wanted to die out of embarrassment because of how cheesy it sounded.
“Woah, Kibum, who is this about?” Jonghyun smirked. “I didn’t know you had such affection for someone!”
“I’m just writing a song. Does it even have to be about someone?” Kibum grumbled.
“When people write love songs like this, it’s usually about someone,” Jonghyun smirked.
“I know! I know!” Minjae said with his chin up as if proud to know it before anyone else. “It’s Eunji.”
Kibum found it unbelievable that Minjae was able to say it so loud and clear instead of just whispering it to Jonghyun. “OH-MY-GOD MINJAE. SSSHH!”
“Ooohhh, the girl asking for possible bachelors for her mom all the time?”
“For your information, it’s the girl with the most amazing voice I’ve ever heard and the girl who has the greatest heart of all,” Kibum said.
“Hey, what does that make me, then?” Jonghyun joked. “You said I had the greatest voice of all.”
“Well—tch… besides you, okay,” Kibum rolled his eyes.
“I go to a youth group with her,” Minjae added. “I’m pretty close to her ever since we were kids so I know.”
“Know what?” Kibum snarled.
“Know when someone is interested in her,” Minjae snickered. “And I’m close with you, too, so I know you like her. Besides, who else would that song be about but her?”
“Tch, just because you’re dating So-Eun now, you feel like an expert, huh,” Kibum scoffed. “You feel like you know everything.”
“Then are you denying that you like her?” Minjae crossed his arms. “You know I’m very right.”
“C’mon just admit it, bro. I mean I don’t think Eunji’s pretty bad,” Jonghyun said. “We’re not a pack of wolves. We’re you’re friends. Don’t we deserve to know if you like someone?”
“Hm. I don’t know about that. You guys were a pack of wolves just seconds ago.”
“Oh c’mon, you know we were just playing. On a serious note, we could actually help you out with composing this.”
Kibum gave it a second thought and stuttered, “R-really…?”
“I have to admit, it’s pretty good already. I definitely want to hear how it goes,” Jonghyun said. “I’ve written stuff way cringe-ier than this, so don’t worry.”
“See, coming from Jonghyun the music genius, that’s something,” Minjae said.
“I’m still inexperienced with romance, though I do know how to think of the moods and structures of songs,” Jonghyun added. “Minjae and Minho can help you with finishing up the words. I’ll be the composer.”
“Wait, Minho? He doesn’t even know romance,” Kibum scoffed.
“Oh, he does,” Jonghyun smirked. “We can discuss that later. But anyway, I guess it’d be enough if Minjae helped since he knows Eunji more than all of us. And he’s the only guy dating someone. I mean can you believe it? He’s dating before any of us and he’s like the most-girly looking boy around.”
“I am not!” Minjae pouted.
After Kibum dropped Eunji off at the studio to be with Mr. Kim, he went straight to Jonghyun’s house just as they planned earlier that day. Minjae, Minho, and Jinri were all there. They went up to his room and Jinri, being there for the first time, marveled at the music equipment sitting on every corner. There was an upright electric keyboard, a minty-green bass guitar leaning on a large amp, a starburst Les Paul beside it, and an acoustic guitar sitting at his bed. There were different kinds of wires under his desk that connected to his laptop. There was also a mini MIDI piano keyboard to top it all off. It made everyone there feel like it was not a bedroom but a small recording studio.
“You even have a box drum!?” Jinri pointed to what Kibum decided to sit on. “Oh man, Jonghyun, this place is so cool! You’re really serious about being a musician, huh.”
“These are all a bunch of second-hand instruments from my uncle. But yeah, it’s been my passion. Whether it’d be just composing or me actually performing them, music is what keeps my life.”
“Speaking of composing, why don’t we finish Kibum’s song today since we’re already here with your awesome instruments?” Minjae said.
“Wait, Kibum has a song?” Minho snickered.
Instead of finding it ridiculous, Jinri thought it was intriguing, “Oh, really? You haven’t told us. I wanna hear it!”
Kibum just sighed. It was still embarrassing for him to reveal that he has written a love song, but he did want it to be completed. And who would be better to complete it with but with his musically talented friends Jonghyun and Minjae, right?
“I just started it earlier this morning. It’s-it’s not that good yet,” Kibum said as he took out the papers from his bag.
“Oh come on, it will be good, trust me,” Jonghyun. “With our help, you will Eunji’s heart, no worries!”
Kibum was again flustered that they mentioned Eunji again so carelessly especially since Jinri and Minho didn’t know about it yet.
“Eunji!” Jinri burst into laughter. “Hold on, really? Eunji?”
“You like Eunji?” Minho laughed in astonishment, too.
“Fine—yeah, I like Eunji. What’s so wrong about that?” Kibum pouted, thinking they were laughing because they didn’t find Eunji all that special when in fact that is not what they thought at all.
“Of course it’s not. Eunji’s an amazing person,” Jinri said. “It’s just quite surprising that you like her. That girl has no heart for boys. She’s even like a boy herself.”
“Yeah, she’s manlier than Minjae,” Minho said earning a death glare from Minjae.
“What do you like about her?” Jinri asked.
“Well—I… Do you really need a reason? I mean just everything about her makes me… makes me happy,” Kibum stammered. “She has an awesome voice, she’s pretty, her smile is like the brightest thing ever, she plays and jokes well with me, she’s a little rough on the outside but she’s very compassionate, understanding, and wise, and I don’t know… I could go on, really. And she doesn’t, like, bring me down for things that I find enjoyable even though it’s a bit… I don’t know… She’s just so cool.”
“Oh wow,” Minho nodded. “Not many guys have a crush on her—I’m surprised you of all people see her that way.”
“Yeah, it’s my first time hearing such admiration for her,” Minjae said. “What started it?”
“I’m not really so sure myself,” Kibum wondered. “But I think… I think it’s just recently that I feel like I’ve fallen deep for her—like I genuinely feel like I want to care for her. I’ve had a crush on her for a long while but… it’s just these days that I actually want to make her happy and you know, make her laugh or something. Like I want to be there for her often, you know? But I’m just worried if it shows… she’ll find me creepy and you know, shun me. I don’t think I’m her type.”
“You’re worried she won’t feel the same way, huh?” Jinri said.
“Yeah. She just knows me as the loud and crazy kid running around school and occasionally visiting her lunch table. I mean we are neighbors and we have been hanging out more than we ever did in our time of knowing each other, but… I’m just scared.”
“Hmm, I was thinking about that too, but to be honest, I think her feelings for you are not far off,” Minjae suddenly said. “I feel like she likes you more than you think.”
“What makes you think that?” Kibum asked.
“You’re a fun guy, Kibum, and she has told me before that she does likes having you around. I don’t think she would let you in her house so often if she didn’t like hanging out with you. So it’s probably possible for her to share the same feelings. I mean you never know until you actually make a move, right?”
“But the thing is, I don’t want to start anything too soon, you know? If it turns out she doesn’t have feelings for me, what am I gonna do? I would make it weird for the both of us. We haven’t even been friends that long, Minjae.”
“Regardless of that thought,” Jonghyun said. “I bet you when we finish this song, she will love it so much and find new light in you.”
“Are you sure about that?”
“Although you are pretty crazy most of the time as you said, this could actually work and show how much of an affectionate person you are,” Jonghyun said. “And if it doesn’t work out—if it turns out she really doesn’t like you, then her loss, right? She’s gonna miss out on a really good guy!”
“No, it’s my loss, not hers, because I want her to be in my life, not vice versa,” Kibum said. “Gosh Jonghyun, you really have no experience, do you?”
“Look, all I’m saying is, isn’t it better if you confess to her with a song? You know… just to see how she would react. She is a singer after all. You can just casually sing it for her and let her think for herself what it all means. You don’t have to be so direct about it that it’s about her. So it’s gonna be good. Trust me.”
“Why are you so sure this can win her heart?”
“I made it work for the both of them, didn’t I?” Jonghyun pointed to Jinri and Minho and the two were flustered by what he said. Minjae and Kibum stared at the two in disbelief.
“Wait… you guys are a thing?” Kibum’s mouth dropped.
“Um…” Minho glanced at Jinri and gulped.
Jinri, who was right beside Jonghyun, slapped him on his arm. “I told you we should be the one to reveal it, not you!” she scolded him.
“Wow, okay, what is going on,” Kibum laughed. “How come Minjae and I know nothing of this?”
“Jinri came to me wanting to make a song for Minho and—” before he could finish his sentence, Jinri covered his mouth and tried to headlock him. After rustling away from Jinri’s grip, Jonghyun said laughing, “Minho fell for Jinri with a song I wrote and composed. I have talent with songs, guys.”
“So you both are dating right now?” Minjae said while looking at Jinri and Minho. “Wow it feels weird to be at this age. I never knew you’d both be a thing.”
“Well, I pretty much expected they’d be together right from the moment they met each other. But you, I never knew you’d have a girlfriend, too, out of all people,” Jonghyun pointed to Minjae. “You’re the girliest.”
“Oh come on,” Minjae rolled her eyes. “I’m not girly!”
“You do realize that makes you the only loner in our group now, Jonghyun,” Minho chuckled.
“LONER AND PROUD,” Jonghyun bragged.
“I’m still here for you, Jonghyun,” Kibum said. “We could be loners together.”
“Aw, Kibum,” Jonghyun flashed a warm smile towards his friends then snickered. “But it’d be nice if I can be the cupid around here. I don’t care about being in a relationship yet as all of you guys do, but I do find all of this entertaining. So I’m still going to help you in winning Eunji’s heart.”
“Isn’t it weird that you want us to pay more attention to our girlfriends than hang out with you?” Minjae wondered.
“Now who says I wanted that?!” Jonghyun pouted. “I want you guys to be happy with your relationships, but I don’t want you all to forget that I played a big role. As I said, I’m the cupid here! It’d be nice to have some achievements in winning people’s hearts with my song before I actually become a well-known musician! And I mean if any of the people I became cupid for actually gets married in the future, I’ll be convinced that my songs have a potential to be very successful.”
“If we finish my song and it works to win Eunji’s heart in some way, then I’ll treat you to something nice. I will repay you well in the future, especially if you become interested in someone. I will forever remember your help because you are a great bro.”
“See, Kibum understands my place,” Jonghyun said. “Thanks, man. That means a lot.”
“Jonghyun, I… I’m so, so sorry,” Kibum heavily breathed out after recalling that day Jonghyun and his friends worked very hard on the song ‘U’. After all this time, it was them who helped give him courage to confess to Eunji—it was them who made the song that gave him comfort in his coma. They played a big role and bringing him and Eunji together and how did he repay them? He ignored their presence and basically convinced himself that they all meant nothing to him. Now he realizes what a fool he has been. Eunji was right to scold him all this time. He wept bitterly feeling so ashamed of how he treated his friends. He fell on his knees as the guilt weighed heavily on his shoulders.
Jonghyun felt awkward not knowing what to do. He was too stunned to see him kneeling there let alone process what just came out of his mouth. What was going on? What was this about? Why was he crying? Why was he here after he treated them so coldly for the past few months?
“Who is it?” said a girl coming from behind him. It was Jinri. When she saw Kibum sobbing in front of Jonghyun, she approached him and also became speechless to see him there. “Kibum… what are you doing here?”
Kibum was too emotionally stressed to answer. He couldn’t even find the strength to look at them in the eyes.
Jonghyun’s heart broke seeing his friend on his knees so he helped him stand up. He softly patted Kibum’s shoulder and said, “Why don’t you come in?”
Slowly but hesitantly, Kibum stepped in Jonghyun’s home. When Jonghyun closed the door, Jinri softly hugged Kibum and he continued to cry on her shoulders. Sulli then tried to wipe his tears with her hands and asked, “What’s wrong Kibum? Why are you crying so much?”
“I… how could you both let me in so easily like this?” he sniffed.
“What do you mean? We’re you’re friends, Kibum. Of course we’ll let you in any day,” Jonghyun said without wavering. Because of those words, Kibum sobbed even harder. Hearing that they still accepted him as their friend didn’t make any sense to him, but it meant a lot to him.
“Why don’t we go up to Jonghyun’s room and talk there?” Jinri softly caressed his back to give him comfort. And so the three of them went up to Jonghyun’s room. There Minho was playing with the beat pad of Jonghyun’s MIDI piano keyboard and he immediately stood up when Kibum came in.
Kibum, red and miserable from crying, tried to control his tears and the three waited patiently for him to calm down. When Kibum has stopped crying for a while, Sulli gently started, “What brings you here, Kibum?”
“I… I just wanted to say I’m… I’m sorry. For everything.”
“What do you mean?” Jinri asked.
“For these past few months, I’ve been treating you all so badly. But now… now I remember. I remember who guys are to me.”
“You do?” Minho’s eyes widened.
“I’ve been with Eunji all this time because she was the only person I remember well, but recently… she did things to me that I couldn’t understand before.”
“Is that why you guys have been cold to each other today?” Jonghyun asked. “What did she do? Did she hurt you?” he said with his voice hinting anger.
“No, no… It’s my fault. Don’t be angry at her. Please…”
“How could I not be? She’s been stealing you from us,” Jonghyun growled but then Jinri held his arm to tell him not to let his bitterness and jealousy overtake him.
“No, she didn’t steal me from anyone. I was the one being stubborn. I was the one who didn’t want anyone else but her. Don’t hold anything against her. If you need someone to be angry at, be angry at me.”
“What do you mean?” Jonghyun tensed up hearing Kibum blame himself.
“Eunji… she has been caring about you guys a lot more than anyone else,” Kibum said. “She has been telling me for the longest time—ever since I woke up from my coma—not to hate you guys for wanting to hang out with me. She had often tried to convince me to spend time with all of you but… I was stubborn because I didn’t… I didn’t know you. And I… I thought I didn’t want to.” Jonghyun realized that he had been angry at Eunji for the wrong reasons and tried to calm himself down.
“Recently, she had been keeping herself busy and I couldn’t understand why she was doing it but now, I get it. She wanted me to realize that… that you guys are still my friends and that… and that you guys still matter—that you guys should matter to me. So I’m… I’m so, so sorry,” he started to tear up again and Minho patted his back to assure him that it was alright.
“We forgive you,” Jinri said. “Besides, we understand that it’s only because you couldn’t remember us. We kind of understood how hard it was for you—to act like someone you can’t be, or couldn’t be yet. But now that you do remember us, this much is enough, and it’s alright Kibum.”
“Yeah. And don’t be too sorry. As long as you were happy with Eunji, we’re happy. We knew Eunji was generally a good person, so it didn’t completely bother us that you wanted to spend time with her instead,” Minho said. “She does have a good heart as you have always said before to us.”
“B-but I thought… I thought everyone was jealous because I hung out only with her.” Kibum said. “Are you guys not angry at me??
“Yeah, we were jealous,” Jonghyun nodded. “You were our best friend. Who wouldn’t be jealous? But because of the accident, we couldn’t do anything about it. In a way, we do understand you. We can’t be angry at you for that.”
“I’m just so sorry for treating you all like the worst people ever,” Kibum said. “Eunji means so much to me now and I can’t believe I would forget that you guys were the ones who helped me get closer to her.”
“Although we did play a role, you and Eunji got closer by yourselves,” Jinri said.
“But wait, the rumor that you guys are not in good terms today still stands. Is that still true?” Jonghyun asked.
“Yes, it’s true. It’s because… because we argued yesterday about this very thing—how I hated her for intentionally avoiding me so that I could be in your shoes. I hated her for saying that I should give you guys a second chance. But just now, Minjae sent me the old quiz papers that had ‘U’ written at the back of it and I suddenly remembered we completed it and how much you guys worked hard and cared to make my relationship with her work. So now I feel awful for making these stubborn mistakes towards everyone.”
“It’s okay, Kibum. Honestly, we haven’t been the greatest people ourselves. For a while now, we haven’t been as nice to Eunji as we should’ve been, and hearing this all from you now, we’re very sorry to her about that, too. If she was really trying to reconcile us as much as we wanted to reconcile with you, then we would have to say sorry to her as much as you have done today to us.” Jinri said. “What do you say? Let’s all apologize to Eunji together and thank her for all that she was trying to do.”
“Would that be okay?” Kibum timidly lifted his head from crying. “It’s only been a day since Eunji and I argued. I don’t know if she would accept my apology so quickly. I think I said some harsh words to her yesterday. A-and… I don’t know how she will react when I take you all with me.”
“Then we could… we could call Minjae to help us. He’s close to Eunji, right?” Jonghyun said. “If he sent you that old quiz paper, he must’ve been thinking about it already.”
“Yeah,” Jinri nodded. “Let’s not drag this to a week.”
After a short silence, Kibum suddenly said, “You know what? It can wait. Let’s do it in the weekend. Right now, I want to make up for the time we’ve lost together.”
The three were a little bit surprised at his sudden proposal but they couldn’t deny it since this was all they wanted after a long time. And so they hung out in Jonghyun’s room talking about the things they have missed together. They were all together until the day ended.
It’s been two restless days after Jinwon stormed off of Stephanie’s house that one afternoon. Stephanie’s heart had slightly become lighter after finding out the actual story of Jinwon’s dream, but the strange low of energy she’s been having seems to be getting worse. Her head is getting heavier, her body becoming more lethargic than ever, and her appetite rapidly going up and down. She couldn’t understand what she was feeling but she could only blame it from missing Jinwon because she was also craving his presence more than ever.
In the afternoon, Jessica met up with Stephanie at the wedding dress shop. Stephanie didn’t bring up the topic of her confessing to Jinwon because she felt that she has heard more than enough from Yohan. She also did not want to ask about the text messages they’ve been having since she guessed that she has probably read it all out of context. Besides, Jessica is still showing to this day how much she cares for her. Eunji had already gotten extremely bored of checking out a pile of wedding dresses for her mother, but Jessica’s heart was still so full of energy to look for the best dress for her best friend. She has been picking out dresses for her while giving strong opinions and she trusted them like they are the words of the mother she wished to have.
“How’s the fitting? Is it too tight? ‘cause honestly, I want to find another one than this. I don’t think this dress is… you,” Jessica observed as she patted Stephanie’s stomach, hips, and stretched the cloth to see if Stephanie could still breathe.
“Uuuaarrghh!” Eunji grumbled. “Can’t we just get it over with? It’s just a dress! You’ve tried out so many gowns and they all look the same! You look pretty on all of them! And I’m kinda hungry aaaaghhh…. What time is it? Why am I even here instead of singing at Xiah Dragon Noodles?”
“Eunji, you’re doing this for your mother! Are you not at all excited knowing that your mom is getting married, and even more—to your dad? You’re such a unique kid to see your biological parents get married for the first time!” Jessica said as she was going through another set of wedding dresses. She found another dress for Stephanie that was recommended by the stylist of the shop. She helped Stephanie take off the dress and put a new one on.
“I am excited but ugh, it’s just gonna be used for one day, and the price to rent it is pretty high. Why don’t you just lend Mom your own wedding dress since you’re not gonna use it a second time anyway, and it’s free,” Eunji said to Jessica.
“I’m not lending her my dress, are you crazy?” Jessica shot back. “I don’t want her to look like me on her wedding day. Besides, I don’t think my wedding dress’s style would fit her.”
“Well, either that or spend thousands of money on a dress you’re gonna use for one day,” Eunji said, crossing her arms to her chest. “Can’t you guys just get this over with quickly?”
“Wow, the crankier you get, the more you sound like Jinwon when I used to shop with him,” Jessica snickered and shook her head.
“You used to shop with him?” Eunji laughed in disbelief.
“He happens to be my ex-boyfriend from my weird childhood, if you didn’t know. That’s why we’re kind of close buddies even before he dated Stephanie. Anyway, I used to steal him from Stephanie whenever Yohan wasn’t around to hang out with me—with Stephanie’s permission of course,” Jessica said. Stephanie nodded, claiming it to be true.
“Ahhh…,” Eunji was skeptical about the part where Jessica steals Jinwon from her mother after Jinwon just told her a few days ago about that dream of her confessing to him. She wanted to ask about that but she felt it was not her place to know especially with her mother in the room.
As Jessica helped Stephanie with the wedding gown in the dressing room, Jessica said, “Hey, Yohan told me you came to our house yesterday.”
“Oh yeah,” Stephanie said. “I was looking for you.”
“I heard. Yohan told me everything you guys talked about,” Jessica said and Stephanie was flustered.
“What did he tell you?” Stephanie asked.
“High school, Jinwon, Me…,” Jessica trailed off. An awkward silence fell upon them. Then she said, “I’m sorry you had to find out like that. I never really had the courage to tell you back then about the feelings I had towards him and I didn’t think it was necessary. But you understand my true feelings about it all right?”
“Yes,” Stephanie nodded. “Yohan made it clear enough for me so don’t worry,” she smiled reassuringly. As Jessica pulled up the dress and tightened it from her waist, Stephanie’s head began to spin.
“That’s a relief. Because I’m just planning on telling you that Jinwon and I had about the same discussion yesterday.”
“What? Really?” Stephanie winced from the tight dress. Something inside her didn’t feel right.
“Yeah, he called me up at the bar early and we talked about this dream that he had and I explained to him what happened as well. He seems to be pretty stressed about it since he was trying to cut his hours at night, and I didn’t understand why at first. But since Yohan told me your side of the story, I get why you’d think he was cheating on you with me. I know it must be stressful for you right now not being able to be with him at night, but you should understand that Xiah Dragons Bar is really short-staffed right now. I assure you, his workload at night will go down eventually and—”
Jessica suddenly got startled when Stephanie tightly gripped her arm with her weight falling along. Stephanie blinked rapidly with her mouth slightly agape. She was focusing on something very seriously. She was trying not to breathe normally and stood there as if someone pressed the pause button on her. Jessica couldn’t make sense of what was happening.
“Is this… dress too tight again?” Jessica asked as she was trying to read Stephanie’s expression. In a few seconds, Stephanie breathed out and panted. She sat down and pressed her hands to her face.
She shook her head and said, “I feel nauseous.”
“Hm?” Jessica worried for a second but her jaw immediately dropped in shock. She smirked and said, “Well, well, it seems like you had enough alone time with him after all, huh!”
“Huh?” Stephanie was too out of it to understand what she meant but then it clicked and she was so embarassed. She blushed and stammered, “I-I… but I’m on my period right now… I-it’s… no way! How could you even jump so quickly to that conclusion? I just said I was nauseous.”
“Period or spotting? You should know the difference!” Jessica said. Stephanie didn’t know what to say.
“Okay, get up. Let’s take this dress off. We can decide on this another time.”
“B-but the wedding is a few weeks from now, I—”
“Stephanie! This is big news! We need to find out as soon as possible!” Jessica said with a big excited grin. “You can’t stop me now because I will bother you until I find out!”
When they got out of the dressing room, Eunji saw how happy Jessica looked and approached them lazily, “Have you finally found the right dress?”
“No, but Eunji, we are about to find something better! Get your mom’s bag, we’re leaving quickly.”
“Ahh finally… wait, what is this about?”
“Your mom might be pregnant right now,” Jessica whispered. As soon as those words entered Eunji’s ears, she covered her mouth from shock and froze.
“Are… are you serious?”
“Oh, just come along!” Jessica giggled as she dragged the two out of the dress shop.
As they hopped in Jessica’s car, Eunji stared at her mom with wide eyes. She could not believe that this was actually happening. “Aren’t you on your period?”
“I’ve told you it’s not strong but… Jessica told me it might just be spotting so now I actually don’t know,” Stephanie shrugged timidly.
“Is this why you are so tired this week? Does that have something to do with it?” Eunji wondered. “Was it the same when you conceived me?”
“I was so depressed when I had you so I don’t really remember most of what I felt then.”
“I think anything strange from the norm can be a symptom when you’re pregnant,” Jessica laughed. “But nausea is definitely one of them, especially since Fany never gets nauseous.”
“OOooohH!!! This feels so strange!” Eunji exclaimed. “I pretty much expected this to happen someday, but I didn’t know it’d be this soon!” Then she continued in her head, “Minjae’s guess might be right after all…”
“Oh, I’m nervous myself!” Stephanie said. “Jinwon and I thought about having kids for next year, so I don’t know what I’ll feel about it if it’s really happening right now. I don’t know what I’m going to do!”
“With sex drives like yours, I’m pretty sure planning is inevitable,” Jessica mumbled but it was still heard by the two. Eunji’s jaw dropped and she laughed her head off.
“Hey!!” Stephanie retaliated with her face turning pink. “You can’t just say that!”
“When did you guys even do it?” Eunji asked making Stephanie even redder.
Stephanie could not believe her ears and said, “Do you really want to know that of all things?”
Eunji continued to laugh her heart out and then said, “I’m sorry. Yeah, don’t tell me. I don’t want to know.”
“But you guys, what am I going to do if I’m actually pregnant right now? You guys do know that Jinwon and I are not in the best terms right now,” Stephanie said.
“You don’t have to worry,” Jessica said. “Your argument wasn’t even huge. Trust me, I’ve been there, but I don’t think it will be that bad for both of you. You just had a lack of communication. I’m pretty sure he wants to reconcile with you soon. You just have to be confident, say sorry for doubting him, and then reveal it to him when you guys have made up.”
“If you’re really that nervous, I can be with you, Mom,” Eunji said. “But Dad loves you too much. I think you don’t have to worry about anything.” Stephanie nodded her head in understanding and her heart calmed down.
However, when Jessica made a U-turn to reach her apartment, Stephanie’s stomach twisted and she breathed heavily, “Oh man… it’s coming back. I’m feeling really nauseous again.”
“We’re almost there, I just need to park,” Jessica said. When she got the car parked, they all quickly got off and went to Jessica and Yohan’s apartment. As soon as they entered the empty home, Stephanie ran straight to the guest restroom and vomited.
Eunji covered her ears from the gruesome sound and shivered, “She’s pregnant all right… I’ve never heard her sick like that.”
When Stephanie has slightly calmed down, Jessica got a pregnancy test from her bedroom’s dresser and gave it to Stephanie.
“How do you have this?” Stephanie chuckled at the thought of how ready Jessica was for this kind of occasion.
“Well Yohan and I don’t have a son yet, that’s why I have this ready when I need it. But you can use it instead since you need it more right now.”
“Okay,” She took a deep breath and exhaled to calm her rapidly beating heart. “I guess it’s time to find out.”
Jinwon’s moods have also been abnormal from not seeing Stephanie for two days. He has become really anxious and jittery as if he has lost the high he’s had for the past few months. He stares at his phone multiple times a day debating whether to call Jinwon, but his pride wouldn’t let him since Stephanie started this mess. He still felt so bitter that Stephanie would ever accuse him of cheating on her and wanted her to suffer more by letting her think of more absurd things, but he also wanted to run to her, hug her, kiss her, and tell her what a fool she has been. Not being able to see her for two days suddenly felt worse than the fifteen years of separation they had before.
When the night approached again, Jinwon immersed himself in his work trying to forget her for just a little while. However, as he was arranging his set list one last time before stepping on the small stage, Junsu came up to him with a strange grin.
He said, “Jinwon, why don’t you cut your list in half for tonight? You can go home by 11 this evening. My brother can take over for you.”
Jinwon was bewildered that his work hours was suddenly cut off after all that Jessica has said the day before, but he didn’t care to ask why. Less work hours was all he wanted after all. Maybe this was the heavens giving him the time to finally reconcile with Stephanie and hold her close after the two-day separation. He just couldn’t take it anymore. He will definitely hold her tight the moment they see each other again.
As he got up from his seat with his music sheets on hand, he noticed that Junsu did not leave the room in his usual fashion and has been smiling at him for a few minutes now. He felt uncomfortable and stared back. “What?” he said.
“Huh?” Junsu raised his eyebrows. “What?”
“Why are you staring at me like that?” Jinwon asked.
“Ahhh….,” Junsu’s unusual joy made him even more uncomfortable. “Was I staring at you? Hahahaha, I’m sorry. Won’t happen again. Go on, sing your heart out tonight as much as you’d like and go home early, okay?” He then patted Jinwon back softly and left the room.
Jinwon paused for a moment to think about what was going on. He wasn’t curious about why his workload was suddenly reduced, but Junsu’s unusually happy grin made him skeptical. Why would Junsu suddenly be so kind to let him finish work early? It’s not like there is a new musical staff hired already because if so he would be the one to know first. Now he wonders if Jessica actually talked to Junsu about letting him go home early.
And so, he sang his depressing ballads that evening still sounding as if the world had crashed on him. When it was time for his last song, he still did not think that what Junsu did was anything big, but he did look forward to going home—to Stephanie. He was given the chance and he should take advantage of it.
He started playing the keyboard with a high and heart-wrenching tune and started to sing his last song for the night.
If I were to go
If I were to go close to you
What would you think?
Just thinking of this breaks my heart
If you were to leave
If you were to leave my side
How would I ever let you go?
I’m always fearful of this
He closed his eyes and sang his heart out.
Because I was like a fool,
I could only look upon you
Because I was afraid of how your heart might change
And we might grow farther apart
I was such a fool
For not being able to tell you I loved you
Because I was afraid of the hurt and sadness
I would receive after we meet
Just then, Stephanie came in the bar alone. With Jinwon’s eyes still closed, she sat on a table on the corner far off from the stage and waited for him to finish his song.
If you were to come
If you were to come closer to me
What would I do?
I really would not know
Because I was like a fool,
I could only look upon you
Because I was afraid of how your heart might change
And we might grow farther apart
I was such a fool
For not being able to tell you I loved you
Because I was afraid of the hurt and sadness
I would receive after we meet
I was such a fool
For not being able to tell you I loved you
Because I was afraid of the hurt and sadness
I would receive after we meet
As Jinwon opened his eyes, he was drawn to Stephanie’s familiar figure and spotted her immediately. When they met eyes, Stephanie waved and he was stunned. What was she doing here? The heavens must’ve really wanted them to reconcile tonight.
He hastily picked up his music sheets and ran to the back room to pack up. Junsu then came in and said, “Good job. Enjoy the rest of the night!”
“Huh?” Jinwon blinked not knowing why he was saying these things.
Then Junsu patted his back again and softly said, “And congratulations.”
“…on what?” Jinwon scratched his head. Junsu just smiled and walked away. Then he thought to himself, “Does he have something to do with Fany being here?”
With that thought, he went to the table Stephanie sat on and said no words. He stood in front of her and it took most of his energy not to greet her warmly. He wanted to be angry and stand his ground but deep inside him he just wanted to kiss her and embrace her tightly.
“Hey…,” Stephanie awkwardly started.
“What are you doing here?” Jinwon firmly said. Stephanie knew how upset he may be at her but that did not faze her.
“Is it okay if I walk you home tonight?” she said with pleading eyes. Jinwon felt weak just staring at her pouty face. As soon as she stood up, Jinwon could not take it anymore and hugged her as tightly as she could. Stephanie was taken aback for a moment, but she hugged him back, feeling happy that he was not as angry as he seemed even though he had all the right to be angry.
“Let’s go,” Stephanie said and they left the bar together. They walked in silence for some distance that evening with their hands clasped together. Stephanie needed some time to organize her thoughts for she had a lot to say, and Jinwon, knowing this, waited patiently for her.
Finally she started, “I… I want to apologize. I know it’s ridiculous that I ever accused you of cheating on me with my best friend. I’m really sorry for being stupid, and I am really, really sorry that I have been stubborn enough not to contact you these past two days. I’ve just really been out of my mind these days.” She paused for a moment to catch some breath and then continued, “And I uh… I met up with Nicholas about an hour after you left that afternoon.”
Jinwon was shocked that those words even came out of her mouth but he did not say anything. “I know, I know,” Stephanie shook her head. “It’s the most ridiculous thing to do after I’ve just accused you of cheating. I honestly felt… so ashamed that I initiated to meet him first. I felt like I was cheating on you even if I wasn’t planning on doing anything bad with him. It just kind of happened and I couldn’t seem to stop myself because I’ve been so confused for the past few days, and with the argument we had, I guess I was trying to find someone to compare you to, because you know, I was… I was frustrated. I’m always asking for more, and yes… I know that I really have to learn to be satisfied. But you know what’s crazy? Even though I didn’t realize at first, I have been craving your presence more than normal for the past week. It’s only when I met Nick again after all these years that it hit me how much I love you now more than anyone else, and how much I just want to shout that I’m… I’m getting married to you.”
“What did you guys talk about?” Jinwon asked.
“We talked about what has been going on with our lives and we cleared some stuff out about our past relationship. We also congratulated each other on our engagement. It turns out he was getting married, too.”
“Why did he agree to meet you, then?”
“He said it’s because he wanted to clear out stuff about the both of us. It seems he had feelings left over for me even if we haven’t even contacted each other for so long, and he wanted to drop those feelings so that he could love his fiancée fully. I feel like meeting him gave both of us some kind of closure—it helped us I guess in a way, to ready our hearts for who we were supposed to be with, because the way we ended really was just… not clear. But now, I am now fully prepared to believe you and trust you with all my heart. Jinwon the first or Jinwon the second—it won’t ever matter to me which is which anymore because you… you are you, and I want to be with you.” She took a deep breath and looked at him in the eyes.
“And I know the thing with Nick might sound absurd to you but I really did not do anything bad with him. I honestly don’t think I can ever lie to you anymore about anything anymore. My whole being wants me to be real with you. The guilt I’ve had these past few days has scolded me enough.”
“It’s okay. You don’t have to justify yourself. I believe you and I trust you.”
“My mind and especially my body have just been so crazy these days. I don’t think I can emphasize that enough. I really thought it was all just because of the wedding, you being busy at night, and the work I’ve been getting from my online jobs and also with church but… I realize my life has usually been this chaotic, but I had strength. So to see that I had no strength these days really confused me. But I have found the answer to it, and I need to show it to you.”
She stopped walking and faced Jinwon. “Close your eyes and give me your hands.”
“Why?” he said as he did what he was told. Stephanie took out the pregnancy test and placed it on his hands. As soon as he felt it, his heart started beating so rapidly. He opened his eyes and looked down, and there it was, a plus sign staring at him.
For a second he could not process the sign that he was seeing. He was too speechless and shocked that this was right in front of him. However, when the adrenaline started kicking in, he laughed with wide eyes and stared at his fiancée’s beaming face. At that moment, she became the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.
“Fany-ah!” he shouted out of joy and squeezed her tightly, chuckling and screaming hysterically through the night. “I-I-i’m not dreaming, right? This is for real, right?”
“Yes, Jinwon,” Stephanie chuckled. “You’re not dreaming.” He continued to laugh from the immense joy until he started tearing up. With tears in his eyes, he cupped Stephanie’s face and said, “I love you.” He kissed her deeply and hugged her again. Stephanie was overwhelmed seeing him in tears and started crying herself.
“I don’t even know why I feel so happy right now,” Jinwon sniffed. “I certainly don’t think that I am even ready, and we haven’t even started thinking about this for this year, but I’m just so, so glad!”
“I was honestly nervous,” Stephanie cried. “With the things that happened, I was afraid that you would feel indifferent but seeing you now so happy about this, I’m overjoyed as well.”
“Have you told Eunji yet?”
“Yes, Eunji knows. Jessica as well. And I think Jessica has told Junsu and Jaejun too to let you go home early tonight.”
“Ha… Ha!” He laughed as he finally understood why Junsu had such a strange grin earlier. “Oh man, this is making my heart beat so fast. I’ve never felt this rush before. I can’t believe this is happening. I’m… I’m gonna be a dad???”
“You’re already a dad remember?” Stephanie chuckled.
“Right,” Jinwon sheepishly smiled and laughed. “I guess the right words to say are… I’m… I’m gonna have my second child! Our second child!”
“You’re not going to lose your memories this time around again, right?” Stephanie joked.
“I’ll pray to God I won’t,” he chuckled.
That Sunday, at the church’s youth group, not many people came because of finals week. There wasn’t even a band set up for that week so everything was very laid-back. The group was fairly smaller than usual so Hyungsoo was able to gather everyone to sit in a small circle on the floor. As they were about to start, Minjae came in with Kibum and Jonghyun.
“Ah! Minjae, nice to see you with a new friend! And nice to meet you again, Kibum!” Hyungsoo said and Eunji glanced at the door. She didn’t expect to see Kibum here at all especially with Jonghyun trailing behind him.
“Um, we’ve met before?” Kibum wondered.
“Of course! You were Eunji’s friend and neighbor, right?” Hearing this, Eunji hung her head low and avoided eye-contact. Kibum was always included in her prayers every time they shared concerns on their youth group so many of them there knew who he was. However this week, Eunji has not yet said anything about their small argument and she didn’t know how to deal with her feelings with him there today. Why did Minjae even bring them here today of all weeks? What is that guy thinking?
Kibum glanced at Eunji and saw that she refused to look towards his direction. He was aching to hug her, to sit beside her and to say sorry, but the timing was not yet right. He wanted to settle them all privately.
“Jonghyun! Wow, what brings you here?” Jinki stood up and greeted him.
“Oh, you know, I just wanted to check this out. And Minjae convinced me enough to come because he said you guys needed musicians for your band.”
“Ah! Recruiting band members without my permission, I see,” Hyungsoo said and Minjae sheepishly smiled.
“Am I not allowed to?” Minjae asked.
“Of course you’re free to invite whoever you want here, but I decide who goes into the band, okay? Now come, you three. What’s your name again?”
“Well then, Jonghyun and Kibum. Sit wherever you’d like.”
As the three were finally seated on the floor near the corner, Hyungsoo started, “So you guys, I didn’t expect the group to have such few members this week, but now, I actually think it’s a pretty nice atmosphere to have a few people. I honestly am busy myself preparing for my own wedding and I haven’t properly prepared anything to teach you guys today. Jessica and Yohan ditched me last minute because of some business they have to take care of for the couple’s conference, so you guys are left today with no structured schedule. If I feel compelled to preach to y’all, I will. But anyway, I was just thinking that for today, we can just talk to each other about how your week has been and discuss how God has been working through it. Share some stuff, some verses, some encouragement. If you don’t have anything to say, especially Jonghyun and Kibum, if you guys are just checking out what this group is all about, you are totally free to ask anything you’d like. We’re friendly people so we’re not gonna attack you on anything, right guys?”
“Yeah~” everyone replied.
“Now, who’s willing to share first?”
“I just got into the university that I’ve been applying to,” Junmyun said. “Praise God for that. And it’s my first choice, too.”
“Nice!!” Jinki gave a thumbs up.
“Ohhh, you smartass!” Josephine exclaimed. “I knew you were gonna get it!”
“You can’t say ass in church,” Henry elbowed Josephine.
“Fine, smart ‘donkey…’” Josephine scowled. “If only you read KJV. If only…”
“K-ARTS, was it?” Hyungsoo asked and Junmyun nodded. “Amazing! That’s great to hear. What are you taking again?”
“Wow, I wish I took that in college,” Hyungsoo said.
“I uh… I have a crazy one, guys,” Eunji said as she shyly fiddled with a pen. “I don’t know if you know,” she pointed at Hyungsoo. “But you guys… I’m gonna be a big sister!”
“Whaaat!! Really??” Yue squealed. “OHhhhhhh my gooooaaasshhhh!!!”
“WAIT, STEPHANIE?!” Hyungsoo exclaimed. “SHE’S PREGNANT? HOW COME I DO NOT KNOW OF THIS? MAN THOSE IDIOTS ALWAYS TELL ME LAST.”
“We just found out two days ago,” Eunji said. “They’re still deciding how to declare it and they’re thinking of saying it at their wedding but I give you guys the privilege to hear it first.”
“Wow! Congratulations!” Minjae smiled excitedly. “That’s great!”
“Wait, who was her mom marrying again?” Jonghyun whispered Minjae.
“Mr. Kim Jinwon. It’s her actual dad,” Kibum said.
“I thought he was dead?”
“It’s a long story. We can tell you later,” Minjae smiled.
“When will you step up your game, Leader Soo?” Henry smirked.
“I’m not married yet!” Hyungsoo scoffed. “I mean I guess it’d be nice to do so since I’m basically a reserved man now, but I’d actually love to wait patiently, thank you very much!” he raised his chin proudly.
“That is so wonderful though, Eunji! Like man, I still can’t believe how your parents were reconciled after such a long time. Anything is really possible!” said a girl named Christelle who was part of the international group with Henry and Josephine.
“Honestly!” Alicia, who was also one of the international students, agreed.
“Wait, your parents aren’t married yet, aren’t they?” Sungyeol wondered.
“Yeah, my parents are wild,” Eunji laughed. “They have almost zero self-control when it comes to each other. They’re engaged of course, but I think that’s enough for them to think they’re already married.”
“Oh, they’re young and in-love! Let them have that freedom! At least they got together again!” Yue grinned widely.
“That’s what everybody says. You don’t know my pain!” Eunji sighed and chuckled.
“We’ll definitely be praying for your parents,” Hyungsoo noted. “Your parents, they really haven’t changed much since they were teenagers—in the area of love, at least. But yes, all the best for them.”
“I can see that,” Eunji laughed.
“But isn’t it interesting how you will be my family soon as well, Eunji?”
“I’m getting married to your mom’s cousin!” Hyungsoo said and everyone smiled, finding it all interesting to know.
“Ohh yeaah!” Eunji said. “Your future kids will be my second-cousins!”
Hyungsoo then turned to the other students and many of them asked for prayers for their exams. Soon enough, all of them started ranting and complaining about how hard their studies were and it seemed it wouldn’t end until Hyungsoo cut them all off to move on to the next topic. He then turned to Kibum and Jonghyun. “How about you guys? Do you have anything you can share?”
“Oh, we’re not really Christians,” Kibum hesitated.
“Hm, I see. Then how about this… What are some good things that happened this week that you are thankful for? Just anything that made you happy or otherwise relieved, motivated, energized? If you have anything to rant about like the other kids here, you’re free to do so as well.”
“Oh. If you put it that way,” Kibum wondered. When he glanced at Jonghyun, he smiled, “I… I’ve started to remember my friends.” Eunji looked up and her eyes met Kibum’s. He quickly avoided her gaze unable to take in her reaction to the news.
“Oh! Really?” Hyungsoo eyes lit up. He patted Eunji’s back and said, “Your girlfriend here has been praying for that every week—for your well-being and memories. How amazing is that to get her prayer answered!”
Eunji timidly hung her head low embarrassed that Hyungsoo had to say that in front of Kibum, and even claiming that she was his girlfriend—something she really hasn’t officially told anyone for she wasn’t so sure where they both stood. Aside from that, she knew Kibum did not have any belief on these things so she wished Hyungsoo would be a bit more cautious with his words.
Kibum, on the other hand, was very astonished by this. He was hit with a new rain of emotions. Suddenly, he had so many questions. Did Eunji really pray for him often? If so, how often did she really pray for him? How hard did she plead for his life to her God? To him, all his memories concerning his friends came back like a snap of a finger. He only thought that it was coincidence but now, was her prayer part of it? The power it held scared him yet fascinated him at the same time. It was amazing, truly amazing. But above all, he was amazed that Eunji would even dedicate her time talking to her God about him. His eyes started to tear up, feeling overwhelmed by the fact that Eunji loved her to that extent, but he tried holding it in. Eunji must not see her like this.
“I take it you guys are together here today as best friends, right?” Hyungsoo pointed to Kibum and Jonghyun. Eunji had often told about how Kibum didn’t pay much attention to his friends. She never shared it with the whole group, but she did share it often with her trusted youth leader.
Jonghyun was startled catching onto the fact that Hyungsoo meant something more by that, but nevertheless, he nodded, “Yes.”
“Nice,” Hyungsoo smiled knowingly. Then he sprang up to get his Bible. “Ah! Okay, I think I know what we can talk about today. Why don’t you guys turn your Bibles to Genesis 42-45?”
They read about Joseph’s life that told the story about him reconciling with his brothers. They had a very interesting discussion concerning reconciling and forgiveness and Kibum, Eunji, and Jonghyun could not help but feel like all of this was a topic meant for them.
At the end of the discussion, they prayed for each other, and then hung out playing music and board games. While Henry, Josephine, and the other international students were setting up the instruments, Minjae took this as a chance to help his friends settle their conflict now before they start having fun.
Minjae came up to Eunji while she was thanking Hyungsoo for all that he did today. “Eunji, can I borrow you for a moment?”
Minjae glanced at Kibum and Jonghyun who were talking in the corner. “You know what for,” he said.
Eunji took a deep breath and sighed. She didn’t know if it was right for them to reconcile so quickly, but they just discussed about reconciliation with the group a while ago. She said, “Are you sure it’s okay?” Minjae nodded.
All of them went outside the boiler room and into the hall. As soon as the doors to the boiler room were closed, Jonghyun fell on his knees before Eunji. Kibum didn’t expect this from him and immediately followed suit.
“Wh-what is this?” Eunji was flustered and looked around the hall if anyone was watching but they were the only ones there.
“I’m sorry, Eunji,” Jonghyun spoke first. On the other hand, Kibum bit his lips slightly shaking at her presence. He only had to say the same thing, but he was still so ashamed of how he acted for the past few days.
Jonghyun didn’t even tell her what he was saying sorry for but Eunji had already guessed that this was about the rumors concerning many things about Kibum’s loyalty and friendships. “Wha- I- No,” Eunji stammered and went down on her knees as well. “It’s me who should be sorry.”
“No, no, Eunji, I’m sorry for being bitter towards you,” Jonghyun said. “I realized that you’ve only been trying your best and to hold a wrong perception of you is wrong of me.”
“It’s okay,” Eunji said.
“Don’t try to take all the blame, Jonghyun,” Kibum suddenly spoke. He took a deep breath and mustered up the courage to say sorry as well. Kibum started sobbing, “I’m the one who’s been stupid in all of this. You guys did nothing wrong. All you guys tried to do was give me the best and I took great advantage of that. I was… I was selfish. I know that brought you both pain, and if anyone who should be sorry here, it’s me. I’m sorry. I’m sorry…” Eunji saw how remorseful and miserable he was that she couldn’t help but immediately pull him to a tight embrace. Her heart could not take seeing him suffer. But the other truth is she just missed him so much even though it hasn’t been a week since they blew up at each other. She just wanted all of this to end quickly.
“I don’t deserve all of your love.” Kibum still managed to say as he cried bitterly on Eunji’s shoulder. “I’m sorry I’m not the person I was supposed to be.”
Jonghyun stood up and said, “Even if you don’t deserve it, we still want to give it anyway. That’s what friends are for. Even when we know your flaws, we still stick by you. And we forgive you.”
Eunji wiped away his tears and said, “All of the things you’ve said before that hurt us, that’s not you anymore. You should remember that. When you admit your wrong and say sorry, you will always be renewed in my eyes. I know how hard it is to say sorry, and you did well Kibum. Let’s be happy from now on. I love you.”
She kissed him on his lips. Jonghyun and Minjae were startled to see that happen before them and they both glanced at each other smirking. Eunji then hugged Kibum once more to calm him down.
“You definitely need Eunji in your life,” Jonghyun said and Eunji realized that she just kissed Kibum deeply before the two guys. She felt embarrassed and so did Kibum.
“Wait—did I just do that?” Eunji blinked and she and Kibum burst into laughter on the floor. Their laugh echoed so loudly that Hyungsoo opened the door to the boiler room to check them.
“What’s all the ruckus out here? Don’t you guys wanna jaammm?”
“Oh, nothing, we’ll be right there,” Minjae chuckled.